A New Day

I woke up this morning discouraged and confused about life, love and responsibility as usual. I didnt even want to get out of bed because I knew I had a lot to do and hadn't a clue about how I was going to get it done. If anything was certain it was that my heart was way to big evidenced by the many volunteer jobs I have gotten myself into and that seemed to take up more time than I have, leaving my house a mess and laundry undone and my family in need of some TLC *humph* I am in need of some TLC too. *laughing* As the day dragged on the Lord took my chin in his hand and gently turned my face to his and began to tell me that he loved me. As we talked through my tears at times, he revealed to me that it was a new day for me. He told me that he was doing something "new" in me and that the heart of stone that was unable to "feel", "understand", or "know" his plan was being removed and that he was giving me a NEW heart. I saw the old heart in my head....It was familiar and heavy. It was dark and cold and broken from the many blows it had suffered through life trials and cruel and evil things done to it on purpose in an attempt to destroy any hope of it ever being able to really love. I have a notebook that I have drawn pictures of my broken heart in. A collection of instances in which my heart was broken in one way or another. A pictorial documentation that  I simply called "My broken heart sketchbook" and like my broken heart the sketchbook is old and falling apart. Not exactly the testimony tool I was looking for to promote living a good life in Gods Love. Nonetheless there I was with my broken hearted testimony and to much to do AND nothing of worth to show for all my good works. I needed some answers about why my plans of doing good and loving people have failed. I thought that doing good and loving people was what God rewarded. If so then why am I emotionally, physically, spiritually, and financially BROKE? The Lords answer was short and simple, "because all my attempts to do good and love were in vain. They came from ME and not him and though my sacrifices had been great, he rewards obedience. Obedience is better than sacrifice!".
2 Samuel 15:22 But Samuel replied, "What is more pleasing to the LORD: your burnt offerings and sacrifices or your obedience to his voice? Obedience is far better than sacrifice. Listening to him is muchbetter than offering the fat of rams.
I cried when I heard the Lord tell me because of all of my wasted time and effort this but thanked him for his loving correction. I asked him to redeem the time and effort if it were possible and he said "with God, all things are possible" and I know that he smiled. He told me that this day Sept 1, 2010, he was giving me a new heart just like it says in the Bible in Ezekiel 36:26 "And I will give you a new heart with new and right desires, and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take out your stony heart of sin and give you a new, obedient heart". 
So there you have it...a new day. a new Spirit, and a new obedient heart with "right" desires! This is a new blog in which to journal what exactly happens when you get a new heart. I am excited to see what happens! I already know and have been disappointed with MY best efforts and my old stony broken heart, Lets see what God can do with a new heart and HIS Spirit working in my life :)